Stolen

Nothing is real

Everything’s becoming so surreal

My reality is falling apart

All because you broke my heart

It was my will to live that you stole

And that was what shattered my soul

Left my body lifeless and dead

All caused by the words that you said

My world, as I know it, is nothing but black

And all I want is my happiness back

But you’ve stolen and killed that too

And that’s why I want to be freed from you

I want to be able to stop my tears

And I want to keep all of my fears

I want to stop crying out my eyes

And I want to stop hearing all of your lies

So please get out of here and leave me be

Because the hate in your eyes is something I don’t want to see

I Love You

Every time I close my eyes it’s your face that I see

A constant reminder of what I wanted, but what will never be

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I wish that you were standing here so you could understand

How much I truly loved you and how badly I wanted to hold your hand

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Now there’s nothing left of me but my shattered soul

And it was always your love that kept it perfect and whole

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But it was you who took me and tore me apart

Ripped out and played with what was left of my heart

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And although I don’t miss the ache in my chest

Always remember I was the one who swore to love you the best

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So go and keep acting like I was never there

Continue to keep acting like you don’t care

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Bu t I think somewhere deep in your heart you know it too

You love me just as much as I love you

Love

Love. What a stupid word

Who knew its whole concept could be so absurd?

How do we know when we feel love?

Or if it’s something we’ll grow tired of?

But does it matter how we really feel?

Because a broken heart will never fully heal

We’ll always be left with some kind of scar

Reminding us of who we are

And how we never thought the hurt would end

And the break in our heart would never mend

So that’s why I’m trying to feel nothing at all

So I don’t have to worry when I’m going to fall

Maybe I’ve had it wrong all these years

Maybe I don’t have to shed all of these tears

Because who really knows what love is all about?

And has anyone taken the time to figure it out?

Barely Begun

I missed him. That, that was real. The ache. The burn. The need for him. His touch. His arms. His fingers intertwined with mine. But everything else. Our future. Our hopes. His love. That, that was all a dream. I thought he and I had something special. Something that could last a lifetime, or longer than it did. I didn’t except to lose it. To lose him. But do we ever? Do we ever picture ourselves losing that one person? Losing that one thing that keeps us sane? Or do we picture ourselves happy? And in love? With bright smiles and happy futures. Not with tears streaming down our faces and being alone where no one understands. You think that they’ll be there when you need them most. To stand by you when no one else will. To be there through thick and thin. Believing that nothing could ever tear you apart. But then. You are. Ripped open. I didn’t expect it. He didn’t expect it. No one did. And I, I still don’t believe it. I still believe he’ll come back. That we’ll be together. That they’ll be a time that thoughts of him won’t bring tears to my eyes. A time where we can be happy and in love. But believe as I may, it will never happen. Like the day pigs will fly, it’s impossible. He’s never coming back. But I can’t bring myself to admit it. I just can’t. I mean, could you? Could you just let go of something you loved so much for so long? Just turn the other cheek? Forget? Erase? Could you? COULD YOU? No you couldn’t. And neither can I. I won’t give up. I won’t give in. Won’t throw in the towel. Won’t let go. I’m gonna hold onto him. Remember him. Love him. Breathe him. I refuse to forget! I refuse to accept the truth! This can’t be the end! There is no end! There has barely been a beginning! We’ve barley begun! It can’t be over! It just can’t. So much time lost. Lost hugs. Lost kisses. Lost words. It’s not fair. It’s just not.